… Is the joyful expectation of something good. However, there are seasons where hope seems impossible, when everything around you comes crashing down. This can be in your personal life, or in the environment around you. Every time I turn on the news, hope seems to dwindle. Story after story, life is lost. There is corruption and hate, and the news never brings me large amounts of hope with the expectation of good things that are about to happen in our world. However, in the most insurmountable seasons, hope always arises. It finds a way. It pushes through the darkness, and when you need it the most, it shows its face, glimmering in the distance, as old seasons pass and new ones arise.
I can say this because I have recently experienced one of the hardest seasons of my life. Usually every New Year starts with the hope of this being the best year yet, however this year was exceptionally hard. Month after month, there was trauma. It started with drugs and addictions, followed by the death of a close friend, which lead to more addictions, strained friendships and relationships, broken hearts, many tears, and counseling sessions. And if that wasn’t enough, a personal encounter with the threat of cancer, leading to an expensive medical year and will soon result in surgery. Thankfully, the tumors in my body are benign and cancer did not find its way into my life.
There were times in the last 6 months where my hope dwindled. All I wanted was for 2017 to hurry up and role around the corner, as 2016 was proving to be anything but great. I was trying to muster up hope, however that looked more like wishing my life away. I was just wishing for a new season, one full of joy that lacked any drama. It was then that I realized that hope isn't run by a calendar. It doesn't need a new year to arise in our life. It doesn’t need to be January 2017 in order for us to have a fresh start and perspective with our current situations. Thankfully, God designed seasons and each season brings a new thing, in the natural and supernatural.
It was this month that I felt something start to change, when Jeremy started 2nd year at BSSM, and I felt Fall coming; I could feel a shift in my spirit and I felt like the Lord was refilling my hope tank. It felt as if everything that we had experienced in the last 6 months was coming to a close. We were turning the page to a new chapter in our book and I am now excited again. I am hopeful for what is next and excited for this next season.
I have heard a lot of stories like ours. Where this year, 2016, has been one of the hardest years for so many others. So today I pray that as we walk into Fall, we will all be encouraged; encouraged that no matter how hard our season has been, there is always hope far greater than we can ever imagine. Just know that whatever your season currently looks like, you are loved, even through life’s greatest messes!
(..and for days when hope and waiting for new seasons is a challenge... I just play this on repeat!)